Ok so I just realized anon asked me where I have my current degree from, I read it as “at which school are you pursuing your Bachelor’s from”, or rather that’s how my mind digested the question due to being distracted and trying to answer all my inbox messages at once. So maybe that’s why they think I was lying.
I have an Associates in Liberal Arts from BCC, I transferred to Umass as a Spanish Language major in 2012 then dropped out a year and a half later with 12 more credits to go for my Bachelor’s.
I’m torn because I want to know why I have an obsessive anon again, but I’ll never know now because I can’t deal with anon sass anymore and have finally turned off anonymous questions again.
Is it because I’ve been shitty to you somewhere along the lines so now you dedicate minutes of your days trying to acquire as much information about my life as you can?
Honestly just answer these questions for me as yourself and I won’t be mad or even judge you or ever tell anyone who you are. I’m quite understanding. The last person who continuously sent me anonymous hate (though you’re being more nonchalantly antagonizing than hateful) admitted to me who they are and we’ve worked things out and I have never revealed who that person is.
I would be more than happy to do you the same courtesy. What is it you want to know about me EXACTLY? We all know I have flaws upon flaws but I don’t lie much. I certainly lie a lot less than the average person, actually.
You don’t need to be sneaky and anonymous to find out information about me and get a feel for my weaknesses and strengths. I’m an INFJ and extremely private in a lot of ways but in other ways I’m extremely vulnerable.
Either we’ve been friends at some point and I’ve let you down or you’re my ex-boyfriend’s psycho ex who he himself told me about. Or you’re some random tumblr person I’ve never met which would make it terribly confusing for me.
I shouldn’t care that you’re infatuated with me on some level (bitterness, hate, and resentment can evoke just as much infatuation as love) but I do because I feel guilty because I suspect it has something to do with me hurting you at some point (and that is a guess based on what I now know the reasons behind my first anon stalkings were) and all though I am quick to anger I am highly empathetic and sentimental and hate the thought of intentionally or unintentionally hurting people I’ve had any sort of meaningful relationship with.
Just focus on YOURSELF. It’s hard enough for me to keep my own head up without someone anonymous focusing on me so much. I’m 26 already and all I have is an Associates and I’ve made a lot of mistakes in my life that have left me in a position where I’m generally a lot more behind in life than I should be.
The death of my mother knocked me off my ass for a while and now I’m finally ready to go back to Umass and wrap up my BA. I work 2 shitty jobs to make the same amount of money as having one good job. I’m a nobody, a loser, a human, a flagrant asinine fool.
Get over me. And if you’re NOT being obsessive and I’m just overly touchy about it bc I’ve dealt with a lot of anon negativity then I’m sort of sorry but not really bc this is my fucking blog and if you don’t like me enough to be who you are instead of a spineless sunglasses wearing icon then just stop fucking reading my blog.